"The Lord will Fight for you, just be still"
Exodus 14:14
Questions that attempt
to shatter my faith:
- Should I stop asking for the un-askable and come to Jesus for things that are more realistic and attainable?
- If Sunday's diagnosis declares her to have epilepsy than why do I seemingly waste my time trying to change it?
For years I have taken
on the battle of Sundays seizures. For years, even before she was born, I have
prayed for healing for my little girl.
Sunday's diagnosis is Aicardi Syndrome and she was diagnosed at two days
old. One of the markers for this
syndrome is seizures of the worst kind—they are intractable. Intractable means that they always return and
medication does not help. All Aicardi girls have seizures.
I do not know for sure
why I ask God to do something that has seemingly never happened before. Sundays condition makes her nearly required
to have seizures yet I come to God several times a day and ask him to take them
away. I feel childish and naïve when I
realize I am asking for the impossible yet I am entrenched with scripture
encouraging me otherwise.
I am reminded of
Matthew 19:26 when Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible,
but with God all things are possible.” I am reminded of Luke 11:9 "And so
I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking,
and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you"
and I wait with Isaiah 40:31 "but those who hope in the LORD will renew
their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow
weary, they will walk and not be faint."
